Fear

Okay, this post was suddenly inspired by the song I had just been listening to. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, Windows Live Writer, the software I use to write my blog posts, is not allowing me to post the video here. Therefore, instead I shall provide a link.

Scared - Three Days Grace

And it got me thinking. Why do we fear the things we do? What are we so afraid of? For those who have a fear of bugs, why are you so afraid of them? They’re tiny things, most of them will do us no harm if we do none to them. For those of us scared of the dark, what’s the point? You know, once you close your eyes at night, you’re in complete darkness anyway. I used to take walks at night time, and I sometimes still do on occasion. It isn’t going to hurt me. It’s not going to just swallow me up and make me disappear forever. Though, at times when I’m feeling extremely upset and depressed, I will admit, I sometimes wish it would. But then I think about those who would be hurt to see me gone, who would truly miss me, and I change my mind.

Which, in fact, brings me to one of my own fears. Yes, I fear things too, just like any other normal human being. I’m just like the rest of you, no different. One thing I fear is hurting those around me. I don’t like it, not a single bit. I can be a violent person when I get upset or annoyed, I will admit. I’ve physically attacked my own family before because I’ve either just gotten annoyed with them or I’d been on one of my rampages. And I do regret it afterwards, of course. Every single time. But I can just never seem to stop myself in the act. I don’t want to see them hurt. Because it hurts me too.

Another fear I have, which may seem a little silly, is a fear of being alone. Not like being left alone for a few days at home; that I can handle, as long as I know where my family will be. But when I was younger, I used to have dreams. Dreams of when everyone in my house just vanished without a trace. Not a word from any of them. Those dreams scared me. I’m a clingy person. I couldn’t handle being just left like that, by my friends or family. And especially not by the one I love with all my heart. ♥

Of course, I have other, more common fears too. I am human after all. Tee hee. But those aren’t as important. What is important is the fact that I do have friends and family who are there to help me with those fears. To conquer them, to control them.

Don’t let your fears overtake you. Stay in control and you can overtake them.