Stairway Generation

Base Ball Bears – Stairway Generation (Click for lyrics)

I like this song. Especially the translated lyrics. Why? Because in a way, they seem to describe myself, haha. Then again, I’ve never been good at interpreting the meaning behind things. So maybe it’s just my imagination.

Now, how I interpreted it was as someone who says, “Hey, sure, whatever” or “I don’t care” or “I’m not interested” even though they feel very differently inside. But said person has a wall around their heart. A wall that cannot be easily penetrated. It’s a little sad, really, when you think about it.

There are very few have been able to climb over the wall around my heart. The lucky ones, the ones who refused to give up. And they still refuse to give up today, even when I try and push them away.

I never really understood why I tried to push them away, and I don’t understand why I still do so, even though they’ve already seen behind my masque and have infiltrated the wall surrounding my heart. It’s just an extremely bad habit of mine, I guess. A habit that’s grown too hard to break. A habit I’ll probably have for the remainder of my life.

Though I’m a bit glad. Recently, it seems a bit easier to not give in to it. Sure, there’s still some kinks that need worked out. But at least it isn’t nearly as bad as it had been a year ago. Hopefully, eventually, it will fade away completely. And then maybe one day I can throw away this masque for good and break down the wall around my heart. ♥